I have wasted four out of seven days of reading periods. Theoretically I could have done a lot of things because after all I have only two finals for which I really need to prepare. However, here is what I've achieved for the last four days: review some QM and EM for physics, and review some developmental bio and immunology for biochem. That's it, that's all what I have done for the past 24*4= 96 hours. What have I done when I was not studying? Well...besides going to the very long study break on Wednesday night....I don't really have any clues. Here is the scary part! If I knew where I had spent my time I would feel a bit better, but I don't even know how I spent my time?

Lack of motivatoin seems to be a real threat for me right now. No kidding...I am not exaggerating by the term "threat." You know once you lost the focus it's extremely difficult to regain the same kind of spirit that pushes you and motivates you through hardships. I guess the reason why I performed so well for the past two semesters was that I was so sick of my bad grades during my first 1.5 years at Yale. So I decided to study hard and show people what I am capable of.