Absoluteness

The words "must " and "have to," either subconsciously or purposefully, have occupied my mind since I was a little boy. I really didn't remember under whose influence have I developed such a thinking mode, which sometimes motivates a person, but most of the time just brings disappointments.

It's torturous to live under the concept of "must." The more we want to possess, the less we own myself. The moon hanging on the sky is sometimes bright like a mirror, sometimes obscure, sometimes it's perfectly round, and sometimes her face is veiled. People laugh, cry, be together, and then separate. Nothing follows our expectation in full extent. All we can do, is to try to shorten the distance between what is ideal and what we can actually do, and try not to care about the end result. Of course everybody wants to win, but we all know when two teams compete with each other, one must lose. Life itself is like a game; if we want to delve into the game, then we must have the courage to face failures, to walk away with our heads held high.

It's painful to live the word "must." Of course we should all try our best and be ambitious, but I guess if everybody does not have that much expectation, then life should be simpler and happier.